The New York Stock Exchange was in limbo by the time the opening bell rang and it didn’t really know exactly what to do until a few minutes into the market and then even at that, there wasn’t that much action to the move. In the end, I couldn’t really squeeze out the ticks that I needed to resulting in a small loss on the PnL because I didn’t play with size. I just felt like this was going to be one of those days where the market would open up quietly especially with the truncated trading week for Good Friday.
I found a setup in Orange Juice but just when I was about to get in, I just felt like the price action wasn’t all there and decided that instead of even wasting a handful of contracts, it’d just save me money in the long run to not get in the trade. I’m glad because it didn’t really move as much as I would have needed it to and for the rewards that I look for trading that contract, the risk just didn’t justify giving it any attention.
I don’t like to lose – if you didn’t know already – and most importantly, I don’t like being a good loser even though my loss was miniscule compared to what I could have lost had I decided to force the issue or play with size. I suppose that it’s a small consolation but even having to use that word in a post makes me angry. The best I can do is be thankful that I did not trade myself into a deeper hole and that I have a chance to trade tomorrow. I’m still mad…but I’m thankful. Also, I was thankful that I got to spend time with some old business school buddies. We were hanging out at the house and after realizing that playing Madden (yes, we still play) and eating pizza would amount to nothing more than what we did 15 years ago minus the clubbing, we decided go to the movies to watch Ghost In The Shell. That was cool and it was worth the money we spent. When the ending credits rolled, we all looked at each other and gave the thumbs up. It was better than many of the movies that I’ve seen recently. I don’t know if I was just going into it with low expectations or what but it certainly left me with a feeling of contentment. I mean, it didn’t blow my socks off…rather my socks were like halfway on my feet, or maybe even three quarters out so you can kind of surmise the quality of the movie based on that strange image alone. I felt like they would have done better casting Rooney Mara or Emma Roberts but I understand why they cast Scarlet Johannson, she gave a critical depth to the character that wouldn’t have been possible with other actresses.
Watching the movie helped me get away from trading for a while so it was helpful. Now that I’m back home and I’m typing this, I’m getting mad again. But it’s time to move on and get myself clear for tomorrow’s day. Lots of things to be thankful for but there’s business at hand.