The New York Stock Exchange opened up quietly today which was kind of surprising since I felt like we were gonna sell off following Friday’s triple digit loss on the Dow. I guess no one wants a part of this shitty ass market. I read the front headlines of today’s Wall Street Journal but truth be told, I’m still so exhausted from this weekend that I don’t really remember what the big points were going into today’s market.
The cash open provided good opportunities for me and I made some good reads but there was one point where I was caught off guard by a big wave of buying and that pretty much relegated my PnL to the point where I felt like I would lose a large chunk of the ticks I earned in the beginning. I traded maybe 2 or 3 times afterwards but it was more for the gross PnL number. I just wasn’t productive today – I was diluted. Before I went to bed last night, I saw an opportunity to get into the British Pound on the short side but as I was watching things develop I felt like the traders could push it up at any moment going into the latter half of the London session so I traded it carefully which was kind of a dumb idea because the whole market just fell apart and I would have been better off with one trade to the short side instead of the exploratory contracts that I sold short and covered.
Like I said before, I am still really tired. I could never really get the amount of sleep that I wanted to this weekend and even though things are ok now, there is still a little uncertainty swirling around. I have other things that have been pressing in my life for a while that are coming due and it’s making me really really nervous. Well, it’s really only one problem but still. I would like to catch up on some sleep this week but I feel like I need a plan to knock out these worries that I have in my head – even if it’s a one-at-a-time plan I want to have it written out so I can commit to it. I’m thankful to God that I have this new day and I hope that I can be the best person that I can be.