Whatever

The New York Stock Exchange traded like crap this morning. I took one trade on decent size and was like; “fuck this shit”. I’m only gonna lose money in markets like this. What made it suck was that I didn’t fare particularly well in my asset trading. 

I did Wheat again today against my instincts. I knew there was nothing else going on in my other markets but I felt like I could take two, maybe three trades off of a slow Wheat market. Well, that was stupid because after digging myself into a hole, I couldn’t get out even though the last Wheat trade was a winner. In the end, my aggregate PnL was a pathetic one with red numbers across the board. 

I’m tired. I just want to get into the weekend. I hate this job, but I’m thankful for everything else. 

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The Bear Minimum

The New York Stock Exchange was slow this morning. I didn’t really trade all that much because of

a.) how lucky I got yesterday

and

b.) i’m closing the November books

I only traded a little above my minimum capital exposure on both the cash open and my assets. I did Wheat this morning. 

It was a mixed bag as I came out ahead but only by making back what I lost on Wheat in the cash open. 

I was driving home from grocery shopping just now when I spotted a black bear along the side of the road. It’s kind of weird to see them this late in the season but I saw that he/she looked fattened up and was probably about ready to hibernate. So I did what any sane person with common-sense would do: I rolled down my truck window and said: “what up homey G?” and flashed the peace sign. The bear didn’t even look in my direction as the surrounding foliage slowly embraced it out of my sight. The rustling of the branches were soon replaced by the rustling of the tree leaves from a gust of wind, almost as if scripted.   

From London To Ipanema

The New York Stock Exchange traded slowly again out of the gates. I was going to trade it but then at the very last minute, I was like “no, don’t…you got lucky this morning”…

I woke up early to trade the British Pound. As I saw from yesterday, we had a pretty big move which portends a bit of a range holding pattern for the next day. So I knew that my risk wouldn’t be as big and decided to do max size. I don’t know how it happened but on moment I was sitting in front of my desk and then the next moment, I woke up to daylight peeking through the window. I was scared as fuck. Like, literally, scared as fuck because even though I had a stop on my trade, I don’t like to rely on that to tell me when I’m wrong. But when I looked at the PnL, I realized I didn’t need it. Sized up, with a semi-decent move, I was in the money and in the money nicely. I liquidated what I had and took a nice deep breathe all while thanking God for the stroke of fortune.

At 9:29AM, I figured that since I got lucky with the sterling, I may be unlucky trading the cash open and with that, I wrapped up the books for today. 

I’d rather be lucky than good. Honestly. I don’t believe in hard work. I believe in being at the right place at the right time.

I also believe that a day like this calls for taking the wife to dinner later and some 70’s bossa nova, bebehhhh

Hanging On

The New York Stock Exchange traded quickly out of the gates but beyond 2 or 3 trades, things just slowed down. I think we are kind of negative at this point marketwise. Last I checked we were down 50. 

Anywayyyyy…

I traded Feeder Cattle this morning and was sized up. This was not a good thing. After 2 good trades, I pretty much blew out the PnL with a series of sized up bad trades. I decided to call it a day on the asset after going negative. 

I was hoping the Dow would give me some help but even there, sized up, I fared poorly after a promising beginning. At the end of the day, I pretty much stumbled into a pig hole and couldn’t get out. 

The holiday weekend went well for us. The wife and I spent time with family. We watched football and caught up with some people we hadn’t seen in a while. I even caught up with an old trading buddy who I worked with in L.A. but now lives in Boston – talk about an upgrade from 3rd world living, hahaha! Just kidding. It was all good until we went to some family friend’s house and got served the nastiest, most un-delicious turkey I’ve ever had in my existence. It was so bad that I actually discerned something about the character of the people who served it to us, lol. Anyway, I don’t know how they prepared the turkey but it was like eating meat out of a sewage pipe. Yeah…it was that bad. Not even the tasteless gravy could mask it and believe me, I put a goblet’s worth of gravy on that deformity. 

I’m tired. Even though I didn’t trade on Monday, I am still tired. I’m uninspired, but I am grateful for the things that I have and the things that I enjoy. I just hate this job and I wish I were a mega millionaire. 

A Good Harvest

The New York Stock Exchange did not really trade the way I thought it was going to trade this morning so, with me not trading any assets, I have decided to call it a week and get ready for the Thanksgiving holiday. 

I hope you all have had a good harvest this year – not just in trading but also in life. I am thankful for the blessings that I have: my wife, my family & friends. Can’t wait to chill out and watch some football tomorrow. 

Have To Rethink Things

The New York Stock Exchange is trading hard and fast out of the gates. We are in that inflection point where the market has lost traction and traders are in the verge of giving up and completely going on sell mode. In the past month, there was a feeling that things were going to sort themselves out but now as each new open happens, it looks like there is a wholesale dump of assets while the demand is moving down levels on levels. I do not get a sense that buyers are entrenched anywhere near where we are. 

That being said, I wish I was sized up for today but I was operating on a decent enough scale where the moves themselves provided for the PnL. It’s been easier than usual and now I’m starting to wonder if I’m going to go into December busy or trying to wrap up my year per my plans a month before. Feeder Cattle this morning went ok for me. It wasn’t what I wanted but it was enough given my size. 

I was planning to call it a week after today but I am now genuinely curious about tomorrow. I won’t be max size for the cash open but I won’t be playing small either. I’m thinking if I don’t see a move right away, then I’ll call it a week. Right now, I’m glad things went well and I am thankful to God that I didn’t lose any money.

Yawn-Fest

The New York Stock Exchange started off really fast but dropped off in equal fashion. I was thinking of trying to size up but opportunities just disappeared before I could do anything.

I traded the British Pound this morning and while I did make money, I didn’t make as much as I wanted to because I took bigger size on my losers and was too conscious to take bigger size on my winners. 

I don’t know when I will stop trading for the week given that it is the Thanksgiving holiday. I may just trade assets after tomorrow and skip the cash open. Either way, I can’t believe we are wrapping up yet another year. It’s been crazy.